Happy Eid ul-Fitr

Thank God I still have the time to write something about Eid. For the colour of myself, BLACK is the theme of this year. My baju kurung was not so pretty but yeah, I'm not going to be a model. Thank to God again, I still have my smiles on Raya eventhough this heart was fucking bleeding. We broke up on 1st of Raya, sweet isn't ? I don't want to write so much about him. Maybe a poem will be written soon. Here goes the moments of Eid . 

 [ The girl in the polkadot baju kurung is my brother's girlfriend ]

Turning 17

1 day late but I'm not die yet. I lost nothing if I'm not posting about it as long as I was enjoying bitching on the birthday celebration with family and friends. Damn those bastards hold my hand like the BDSM and poured some flour on my face. Hell yeah, it was a free make-up to replace my Garnier powder. And what goes on the night was I'm having Iftar with the family and Taiki will always be there. No gift from him, a lil bit pathetic but I got some from my parents.  Here goes the photos of joy.

 

 Gifts. Still grateful :) 

 

 The Boyfriend. 

Lastly, a warm peace from a fresh 17 years old girl.

Gettin' Fresh

Hey ya, happy August, the month of my birthday! As Eid is coming around, I decided to dye my hair and the dream came true today :) Went back from class and mom sent me to Nuovo Hair Studio. They're having a Raya promotion right now but the price kinda shocked me , coloring is RM115 and bleaching is RM100, so hell yeah the total was RM215. I get free 2 tickets to cinema. Gonna use it with Taiki ^__^ 

After bleaching. The man behind there was my hairstylist. 

 After colouring ( Copper Colour ). It's actually lighter than this one. Just my room is a bit dark.

First Try

Yesterday I was having my iftar with my boyfriend and his family. So, I did some fruit tarts to give to him. By the way, this is my first try and the result was good :) 

Friends ?

What is good to have so many friends in your life ? At the end of your day, just one or two of them will attend to your funeral or maybe no one except your parents if they're still alive. My friends are countable by my fingers. I have 6 at schools, 3 - 5 are somewhere in my town and I don't have a friend at my housing area. 

Nowadays, I don't know why kids are so proud to have 5K of friends in Facebook. Likes, sharing photos and comments on the wall makes them feel like " Oh My God, I have so much fans than celebrities ! ". I used to have 2K of them on my late Facebook, I don't feel so special about having hundreds of likes at my photos. I just thought they like my artworks, I'm not going to be a famous person because popularity lasts for several years. I had a caption on my album, it's " The Silent Foes " , and yeah, I put my friends' photos in that album. There are no such thing as " best friend forever ", nothing last forever except if your friends are immortal . I'm not sorry for having a few friends in my life, I just feel safe.

Doubt

Sorry isn't a way to erase my doubt on you. From what you did last month, it takes time to heal back my wound. Scars, blood and tears, you never appreciate a single drop of it. I love you and I trust on you, but not like before. Maybe it goes down to 50% - 70% of trust. I wonder how you can be so damn happy with others while we were fighting at that moment. I forgave you for that shit but I won't forget it. I don't want to care about you so much like I did before because one day it will hurt me that much. People says, the less you care, the happier you will be. I really wish our relationship will end with death but at this time, could it be huh ? I wonder. I put so much hope on you, marry you, be a mother to your son, maybe it was my fault for being too matured to think about our future but a serious relationship needs maturity. I know you will not read this shit and if you read it, just by one eye open and a couple of minutes later, you will forget what I'm posting right now. Seems like you don't so much care about me. And yeah, me too. Oh..true love, so hard.

Maturity

Happy 1st-Boring-Sunday-of-July ! Nothing much here, I type and erased, and type again. Okay, just get the point of posting this post. I just wanna share a picture that I'd taken yesterday.

Nahhh.. Looks older than a 17 years old teenager used to be eh ?