First Try

Yesterday I was having my iftar with my boyfriend and his family. So, I did some fruit tarts to give to him. By the way, this is my first try and the result was good :) 

Friends ?

What is good to have so many friends in your life ? At the end of your day, just one or two of them will attend to your funeral or maybe no one except your parents if they're still alive. My friends are countable by my fingers. I have 6 at schools, 3 - 5 are somewhere in my town and I don't have a friend at my housing area. 

Nowadays, I don't know why kids are so proud to have 5K of friends in Facebook. Likes, sharing photos and comments on the wall makes them feel like " Oh My God, I have so much fans than celebrities ! ". I used to have 2K of them on my late Facebook, I don't feel so special about having hundreds of likes at my photos. I just thought they like my artworks, I'm not going to be a famous person because popularity lasts for several years. I had a caption on my album, it's " The Silent Foes " , and yeah, I put my friends' photos in that album. There are no such thing as " best friend forever ", nothing last forever except if your friends are immortal . I'm not sorry for having a few friends in my life, I just feel safe.

Doubt

Sorry isn't a way to erase my doubt on you. From what you did last month, it takes time to heal back my wound. Scars, blood and tears, you never appreciate a single drop of it. I love you and I trust on you, but not like before. Maybe it goes down to 50% - 70% of trust. I wonder how you can be so damn happy with others while we were fighting at that moment. I forgave you for that shit but I won't forget it. I don't want to care about you so much like I did before because one day it will hurt me that much. People says, the less you care, the happier you will be. I really wish our relationship will end with death but at this time, could it be huh ? I wonder. I put so much hope on you, marry you, be a mother to your son, maybe it was my fault for being too matured to think about our future but a serious relationship needs maturity. I know you will not read this shit and if you read it, just by one eye open and a couple of minutes later, you will forget what I'm posting right now. Seems like you don't so much care about me. And yeah, me too. Oh..true love, so hard.

Maturity

Happy 1st-Boring-Sunday-of-July ! Nothing much here, I type and erased, and type again. Okay, just get the point of posting this post. I just wanna share a picture that I'd taken yesterday.

Nahhh.. Looks older than a 17 years old teenager used to be eh ?